Will Delusions Ever Go Away? (1.5 years since last episode)

Hello everyone!

TW: SA

I had my first psychotic episode in 2024, and I thought that I kept being sexually assaulted by my friend, and that my dad abused me when I was little. I was later diagnosed with severe Bipolar 1 with mania/psychosis when I reported it to the police, so my parents put me in the hospital.

I kept having intrusive “memories “ of assaults, which my brain probably made up. I was treated with antipsychotics, antidepressants, and intensive inpatient and outpatient therapy.

But honestly, I still don’t know how to stop dreaming about the delusion that I got sexually assaulted. I don’t talk about it anymore with anyone since I don’t want to be sent back to the hospital and I figure it would just be feeding into the delusion, but I wonder if these delusions will ever go away, or are delusions permanent?

I just try not to think about it, and these days I don’t worry so much and I’m not sure happy, so I assume the treatments worked. I take my antipsychotics religiously.