I hate that he keeps winning and no matter how much I try and rebuild myself, he breaks me piece by piece.

Trigger warning: Attempted Unaliving

I am so done, my mom and I were living seperately from my Narcicisst POS of a spawnpoint and she passed away a few months ago, but since they were not yet officially divorced and there's no will, according to my countries laws he is also considered a legal heir despite me also being an adult.

He has tried to use this as leverage over and over again and thankfully most of the finances to be inherited are in my name but for our house, I will need his sign. There are ways where I can fight in court and claim it. Since they both didn't live together and he has a history of abuse that can lead to disqualification as a legal heir but the courts and legal system kn my country are extremely slow and arduous.

Mofo is litrally on the last leg of his life, yet needs to make my life a living hell. I have no one now for any support and most of my family are now siding with him and constantly bothering me to "forget everything and forgive him" yada yada. "Courts are not easy, they arduous" bitch, I never said fighting in court will be easy.

What really breaks my heart is as soon as my mom passed away, they supported me and told me they'll stand by me but they folded and chickened out right when I needed them the most.

In the past during covid I literally attempted to K*ll myself cause I was so tired of the abuse and I just wanted it to end and I felt it was the only way.

I mentioned it to one of my family members on call that if I have to put up with him or face him again I will literally go back to that state and they had the audacity to call me immature and say that I should worry abt inheriting the property 'the right way'.

This was so heartless of them and I feel heartbroken cause I really trusted them and thought they'll have my back.

Recently, I was finally maing arrangements to move out of the house (because now he has a legal right to be able to come here) and move to my own place so I can be no contact but recently due to this family member/enabler visiting suddenly, my plan got failed and the asshole knows I'm leaving so he'll probably drop by during the weekend.

I'm so done, I just wanna move out and live in peace and rebuild my life but this mofo keeps ruining everything for me.

I am not in a suicidal state anymore where I'd give or off myself due to the asshole. I'll get up and find a way out somehow and rebuild my life. He can't ruin my life or control it in any way this time and I'm gonna make sure of it.