F28 I feel like a safe choice, and I cannot move past it

My boyfriend had told me about a girl he had a huge crush on before we started dating. Let’s call her A. He told me really vivid details even after we started dating, like how he once frozen in an elevator because he saw her in tight pants. He also told all of his friends about her, and it sounded like she had a very strong hold on him for years.

It has been an year.With him , I am happy. He is the perfect boyfriend.Takes care of me perfectly.Makes things for me.Learns new things to make me happy.Gives me expensive gifts. The bedroom life is perfect, cannot keep his hands off me.

But sometimes I feel that I am just a safe choice.

After we started dating, I once asked him what he thought would have happened if he had dated her. He said that it wouldn't have worked out because she was too rich, too popular, and that she goes clubbing and has a very different lifestyle.

The problem is that all of those things sound like positive traits in society — rich, popular, glamorous, social. And I am the complete opposite. I’m middle class, I’m not very popular, I don’t go clubbing, and I’m more of a homebody. So hearing those reasons made me feel like I’m somehow a safe option.

When I asked why he didn’t say something emotion-related, he said he never really knew her personality, so he couldn’t know what kind of chemistry they would have had. But the whole conversation left me feeling like maybe he would have desired someone like her more intensely than he desires me.

When I’m with him, I do feel loved and desired, and he often says he loves me because I make him feel loved for the first time. But part of me still feels like with someone like her he might have been more wild, more passionate, more intensely attracted.

Whenever I fall in love with someone, their social or economic background doesn't even come in the way. Ideally, I don't want my partner to look at these things too. I feel that love should be more organic.