Finally free- don’t be afraid to get help

Little back story- I used those 500mg pack 7OH kamas all day every day. As in, I’d get about a deal of 7 for $200 from my local shop. You might be thinking- what the fuck? That’s like 3500mg. That’s right. My tolerance started small. I remember buying like 10mg opias and be railed. But, like the addict I am, I kept upping the dose to get the same nod.

That’s a lot of money. I have a well paying job and even still went into pretty hefty credit card debt over this.

I actually tried to quit at home cold turkey many times. The most I ever got was 12ish hours before I went insane with the kicks, chills, sweats, and horrific anxiety.

Well, I gave up. I have 3 children and their mother and I had decided that I needed to get clean at the psych center. They are quite young and of course didn’t understand when we sat them down to tell themand had a many questions when we told them daddy needed to go away for to a place like a hospital for his brain to get better.. I personally lost it when my youngest asked why I don’t take medicine if my brain hurts to get better. Poor kid.

As hard as it was saying bye the next day and drawing out when I would leave, I eventually did get in that car and drive to the psych center and got myself admitted. My last dose was Monday at 1055am and I hit 100 hours clean a little over an hour ago.

Inside the facility they had me jacked up on so many medications that I don’t even remember the first couple days. The second days todays I was still groggy from the daily meds but was able to participate in group sessions and stuff.

My point is for those out there that feel helpless and that quitting this thing is impossible, it’s not. Not everyone has the power to white knuckle it out at home- I sure didn’t at the dose I was at