im really sad

hi friends, i dont know why im writing this here but i honestly feel i have no one to talk to, i just want to write about my last week

last week i went on vacation with two of my friends, these two are among my best friends, which ive known for 7 years and have always been on amazing terms with, with a very close connection, and they are (or at least were) very dear to me.

another person, which is a friend of one of them also joined (we are all males 24-25 years old)

as things happened to be, that third person changed the dynamics from the get go, and thats fine honestly, but as a result, my friends just started treating me.. as if we were on separate trips. they would go to places without me if i was a little late, when we walked together, they would walk at a very fast pace and wouldnt let me enter their line, and wouldnt slow down when i couldnt match their pace. even when we hiked a mountain, i simply couldnt match their pace, im just not as in shape as they are, but instead of hiking with me, showing me that they want me beside them and have fun with me, they just hiked alone, and stopped to wait for me only when they were about to lose sight of me, only to then leave me behind again. they also didnt respond to around 70% of the things i said. Just completely ignored them. and that is when nothing remotely closed to a fight or argument even happened and i swear on it. i just felt like the three of them formed a group and left me out, it was very painful, but the most painful thing came after the hiking, after those few hours they were constantly leaving me behind, i closed off and didnt want to talk to them much, i know it wasnt ideal, but the feeling of humiliation and disrespect from my own friends hurt me quite a bit, saying things like "yeah sure get into our schedule" when i wanted to skii with them for ten minutes, like what is get into our schedule?? are we not traveling together?

but whats making me incredibely sad right now is what happened after

a day after me closing off, they tried talking with me to see whats wrong, i told them that when you travel as four its good to make sure that all four feel included, their response was "well obviously no one has the obligation to do that", and then tried asking further, but i didnt want to say, so they got really mad and we stopped the conversation. that was two days ago.

yesterday when i woke up, i did try to at least sit in the same space as them and talk a little even though it was awkward, honestly being closed up in my room alone while on a trip abroad is pretty unbearable, it was hard at first but as the day went on things got better, we went to do some activity and then to eat, watched a show and said good night.

however when i woke up today, their treatment got so much worse, they just treated me like shit, my closest friends, just treated me like i was some trash down the road. they went outside without inviting me, ignored the things i said and treated me coldly

i decided to pack my stuff and book an aprtment for myself.

now im alone in some old apartment, i cant go back to my country for the next few days, and i dont want to tell my parents and sadden them

my closest friends just decided to leave me out, treat me as i was not part of them, after 7 years of good friendship. i swear on my life that nothing close to that has ever ever happened, they were ALWAYS nice and attentive to me, always had fun and made jokes together, we were always very good to each other. i honestly dont know what to do, it makes me so sad to have people i love so much do this to me when we were supposed to be having so much fun together.

im sorry for the long post and thanks to everyone who read up to this point, im really lost right now and miss my home, but the worst is the loss of trust by the fact that my friends of such a long time just threw me away like this