Cuckson for my widow mom who is a english teacher, want to discuss fantasies

I am Aditya 21M, my mom is sheela 45F. She is a widow since 7 years. After my father passed away I kind of started to feel the need for a bad. That's when I started imagining my mom with my dad's friends. I striped her naked my brain. I also tried to see her naked sometimes. Of course there was a period in time when I also wanted to do it with her. But I like to imagine people making her a slut. I have imagined a lot of people, my senior, my teachers, heros, my dad's friends all them with my mom.

I just wanted to confess that I like to imagine my mom as a slut, dont be judgmental. I feel it's partly because I want to see her happy with a man.

Edit : She is an English teacher btw