At odds with mental health professionals…

I believe that I have experienced some degree of hypomania. I think I might either have bipolar 2 or Cyclothymia or a substance induced (SSRIs) mood disorder. I believe this makes a difference to the treatment I should be offered, antidepressants tend to make things worse whereas antipsychotics are okay.

Most mental health professionals say I have BPD. I was diagnosed aged 16. One GP said it might be bipolar but that’s it. I might have BPD but they’d have a hard time convincing me the my mood doesn’t have some tendency to go up. I guess maybe I could get on board with the high mood being at the top of normal aka a 6?

The other dimension is I don’t want a diagnosis of bipolar 2/ Cyclothymia because I want my mood to be medicated as up as possible. I hope I find the antidepressant that gives me energy all of the time. So I lie and I lie and I exaggerate the BPD.