I get naughty when i travel for work. 35 F

I'm a travel nurse, but I'm a mom and act like I'm pretty boring at home, but i have a naughty secret. I started going out more when i would travel for work. I met a guy at a bar in one of the cities i was in and ended up sleeping with him. He is super rough and kinky which is what I'm into. I have a thing for being degraded and roughed up. He asked me if I was into multiple men, I said yes. And the next time I was in town he brought a friend and they took turns on me. Last week I was there again for work. We met u p and he tied me up and blindfolded me and I agreed to let another guy join. But I didn't get to see him. I have no idea who fucked me and I can't stop thinking about it but I feel so nasty. Like um nobody at home knows I did that and it turns me on but I also feel kind of filthy ugh