This is why you go no contact you’ll always be left disappointed

Long story short we went out for dinner to catch up. I only hit her up to make sure she’s alive and okay. That’s already my mistake for caring too much. She’s starts telling me all these things over the phone that I believe any ex would think would believe there’s an interest. Anyways she still keeps going with things that would hype anyone up. She did say however she’s been recently broke up that she’s too scared of dating. However she keeps going and at one point says she deleted our stuff a while ago but went to go look for them. I was confused. She even said she kept a romantic drawing I made of us together and a necklace a heart with her birthstone. She even asks what did I keep and to look at our stuff together. I told her I still have most of our pics/vids.

So before the night ended we go to my car to look at our old stuff. A few pictures and videos she would look at for longer periods but the others would swipe. She would say things like look at that awww look at how cute we are oops there’s you eating me out oh I remember that ooh send me this one she would say shit like that. After all that tho I drop her off to her car and she gives me this long hug and tells me besties. I was so confused but mostly disappointed.

2 days later on after a mild argument I asked her why did she even want to look at our stuff together ? Her response was she just wanted to see what I kept. I didn’t know what to say at first. I even told her about how I miss all the activities we would do with her kids. How I felt like a father and still love/care about those kids. She told me you’re talking about things that happened so long ago. That statement made me feel like all those times together with her or her & kids never happened. That they’re all meaningless.

Two weeks later I told her it’s fucked up to just look at our stuff together and leave me hanging. I didn’t keep them for no reason they mean something to me they’re memories of someone I love and care dearly. They’re not collectibles like funkos, baseball cards or shit like that. I laugh I cry I get happy I get angry they’re emotional to me. You’re the one that says all the stuff over the years, but do nothing. You’re the one that went looking for our stuff only to remember that you deleted them. I don’t deserve that shit I told her. No response.

I honestly don’t understand why even tell me you kept a few items from an ex (me) if they mean absolutely nothing to her? Why stir up those emotions by looking at our stuff together. Who knows if she actually looked for our stuff or kept these items at this point her words are worthless. Why tell me all these stupid things but never deliver on them. It is my fault for believing her words all because I loved her.

I should of known better it’s not the first time she’s let me down by leaving me hanging

Edit: I found out later on she’s been dating some guy she originally said was just a friend (classic) what’s even more fucked up is her telling me all this stuff behind poor dudes back. I’m sure the same has happened to me during our time together.