Mild Acute Pancreatitis 2/8/26

Male 35, Healthy Weight, Diet, Lifestyle.

I had mild acute pancreatitis feb 8th, 2026. Doctors ruled it idiopathic and there was no tissue or damage of any kind. It turned out to be most likely linked to lomotil (diphenoxylate atropine) and the amount of atropine I was taking close to .25mg a day leading to long term toxicity. Ever since I stopped the lomotil my baseline resting heart rate had dropped 15bpm, and my heart abnormalities along with long term undiagnosed IBS like symptoms are clearing up.

The issue is, I was a medical cannabis patient 2012-2025 but I stopped September 2025 due to pursuing a union welding job. My health deteriorated incredibly from that point forward, I believe cannabis was suppressing alot of the inflammation in my body, preventing night terrors via REM suppression, and helping my heart via vasodilation.

I was a “moderate drinker” they labeled me, I would have a 16oz craft beer with dinner every night, and it never worsened digestive or any issues I had.

Now my very honest dilemna, I cant use medical cannabis, and I can’t consume alcohol for at least 4-6 months, I have no pressure release valve, Im losing my mind. I exercise, I eat incredibly healthy, I get sun everyday, I meditate, I do alot of self care and self therapy. But my brain, when sadness or extreme overwhelm builds up, half a hit of cannabis used to help me depressure and just think more clearly and I could look at life less cynically, and see the bigger picture, now no alcohol no cannabis, I only sleep about 4-5hours max a night despite how much I exercise avoid screens, have a healthy routine etc, my anxiety and stress levels are so through the roof ive cracked four teeth clenching my jaw.

If i take a hit of cannabis I risk losing my job, if I take a drink I risk my health and serious consequences, my head is about to explode, what the hell do I do?