Is my mom a narcissist?? (And she has cheated on my dad def)

I've never seen her through that lens and I love her but I hate her many a times too😭✋🏻

I'm afraid I might sound like an entitled asshole but I'm gonna list everything I feel like she does is making me uncomfortable.

1)Last month I had an exam. And I did so terrible that I thought I was gonna fail an exam for the first time in my life. I told her this before going to the exam and she didn't believe me. She said you're smart and you will not fail. After the exam I was crying on the way home and told her no it was really bad and I might just fail. She STILL kept denying it. I said pls let's not disscus anything. We never discuss any papers but ofc after I said that she wanted to discuss. I was bawling my eyes out, being so disappointed in myself and she made me give her the answers while I was crying and kept shouting don't cry there's no reason to cry now. I told her don't tell me the result please I have more papers coming up and I don't need that kind of demotivation. She went to her room and began chat gptying the ans.

2. After that during dinner she asked were those the answers you actually wrote? I said mom please I don't remember what I wrote please let's not disscus this. She said if you wrote those you are not getting any marks. I was so pissed at this point because I asked her not to tell me and she told me?? I had tears forming but didn't wanna cry in front of the rest of the family so I somehow ate and went to my room and cried a lot.

3. After I went to my room and locked my door so I can cry peacefully she came and knocked on my door and demanded I open it I didn't for a long time and she almost tried break it so I had to open it. She started yelling again and I ignored her and tried to tidy up my space to distract myself. She stayed there for 1 more hour just watching my cry and clean and try to study while scrolling on her phone.

4. My dad was out that night and apparently she cried when he came home because she felt "Guilty" .

5. I woke the next day and my vision was severely blurred I told my father about this he said let's go to the doc after the clinic opens and I agreed. My mom heard this and said Yess my vision is also blurred because I cried so much yesterday. I said when did you cry? She said because I felt guilty and then she apologized... She kept asking the whole day if she looks tired and dont her eyes look so dark and baggy and kept telling me how fresh my eyes look...🙂

6. turns out I put in wrong drops in my eyes which caused the blurry vision so the fact that she was pretending to get attention to herself felt awful.

7. I'm overweight and my household always makes me eat so much. If I try eat less to be calorie deficit they guilt trip me into eating more and say just finish it off ,its made just for you. My mom keeps bodyshaming me saying you shouldn't have all this fat at this age. And then when I try to eat moderately she comes and says "Omg are you trying to diet?" Like why are you shaming me? I'm just used to it now.

8)My dad is not home most of the year and I know she has cheated because I read texts of her talking to 2 diff men. And she talks about these men to my dad too. Which makes me think she made him feel guilty about him not being able to stay home and allowing her to have partners. So I can't tell him this. This will just ruin everyone's relationship.

9. I have just trying to deny the cheating but I have seen so much proof. Her texting the man about how her employees will be out of the office by this time and you can come over now. Should I bring this to wear? I love you and stuff.

10. I'm pretty sure I have ADHD she thinks it's a mental problem and doesn't let me get any help. I tried to tell her it's affecting my studies but nope.

11. We went on a trip for a week on her birthday. We ate a lot and had cheese cakes. And at the end of the day she was angry and said y'all didn't even give me birthday cake. We both felt so guilty and went out to get cake but it was closed already. I get that it was our responsibility to bring a cake but we're on a trip and we had cheese cakes? She talked about this every year and makes up feel guilty meanwhile on my 18th birthday she didn't ask me what kind of cake I wanted. I got 3 different cakes from different people (makes me sound entitled ik) but those weren't the ones I want. I had saved Pinterest pics all year to show her what cake I wanted but she didn't ask. I told her I wanted a guitar and she said we'll get it after your exam so I didn't get any gift. (Didn't get any gift for the 17th or 16th too)

Writing all this just cleared so many problems But she gives me love too so like idk. And like you're just seeing her bad side? Idk man just tell me.