Can’t take it anymore

25m only been with women before. Always felt somewhat off. Been jerking off to guys for ever but never accepted that I’m probably gay. I don’t know how much longer I can deny it though. The thought of fucking, kissing and dating another man gets me insanely hard. I’ve come close to doing it before but I’ve never gone through with it. I think the inevitable day that I give in and become full homo is near