all of my friends are girls, i’m trans and don’t fit in with guys- it’s a problem in ALL of my relationships.

okay this probably won’t make sense since i don’t know how to write. but here’s some backstory ig??

i came out when i was around 13 and i’m turning 18 this year. im not on testosterone yet but i plan to on my birthday. i’ve always been friends with females since that’s who i grew up with when i was little. i was a female at the time so i had female friends. my town is pretty small so i don’t really know anyone outside of my school so i just grew up with knowing everyone and you stick with the friends you have.

my friends, all girls, have always stuck by my side through my transitioned and have always accepted me. i’ve never had any crushes on them even when i was a girl and figuring out my sexuality. even if i may not be their close friend, they are to me and they’re all i have.

when i started hanging out with friends (i didn’t for a while bc i had social anxiety and never really had the opportunity to hangout with people) was around 16 and i also was starting to really want a relationship. i’ve had a few relationships since then and a lot of them ended because i am friends with girls. they would get jealous of when i would hangout with friends bc they’re girls or they’d be mad bc i post me and my friends while hanging out or something or even just for someone birthday. i do understand where they’re coming from but it’s not like i can help it. i really just don’t fit in with guys and it’s really hard to make friends for me. i feel sad a lot of the time bc my partner at the time would get upset bc i’m just hanging out or talking to a friend.

please help!!?!!!??? what am i supposed to do. i just want a relationship where i’m not constantly walking on eggshells if i talk about my friends or hang out with them