I got a question

Okay so I don’t know which sub community to ask this to but basically, story time:

So I was in this youth place and theres a basketball court and then theres a small room connected to the basketball court. But you can’t hear or see anything im the basketball court. Theres tiny windows but placed high.

Anyways, I was sitting down and talking to my boxing coach and another black guy thats around my age. He rapped for me and we were talking about music and other stuff like religion. Then I was talking so comfortably and all of a sudden my stomach drops. When I tell you I’ve never had this feeling in like 3 years. This stomach drops was so bad it made me wanna like idk?? Like i felt it but it was stronger than the last time I had it. A few seconds later the guy that was rapping his friend came inside like after let’s say idk 10-20 seconds to greet his friend . Also idk but it felt so unexpected I tried to tell chat gpt but it keeps making dumb excuses but idk I want a professional to tell me. Also this happened on a Wednesday Idk if I mentioned that already.

Okay now the next day i woke up with the strongest stomach drop. It was so bad idk how to explain it but it was the same feeling I got on Wednesday. Okay so like everything felt off as well. Mind you it was such a nice day and idk I felt the urge to dress so nicely to impress someone. Idky but my heart was telling me to dress nicely for something. And when I went to the youth I see the guy again when my stomach dropped. Idky this is happened mind you now he NEVER comes on a Wednesday or thursday???

Okay so guys I did something terribly wrong. I did the o method…. So like I wrote my crush name we are gonna call him dragonfruit. So I found out he had a girlfriend on the Tuesday but I wanted to do the o method on a Monday. So before I even knew dragonfruit had a gf I wrote his name on my pad (SORRY TMI), then I had the urge to write the guys name when my stomach dropped OKAY GUYS! We gonna name him blazeball. So basically I wrote blaseballs name on the pad and when I woke up the next day so the Tuesday I saw blazeballs name was smudged in blood but dragonfruit’s name was still like written clearly mind you maybe my pad shifted in the night but theres no way because I wrote dragonfruit’s name the largest and right in the centre and blazeballs name to the front of the pad. All of a sudden this is happening idk how to feel. I had a crush on dragon fruit for 6 months and when he had a gf Idky but I don’t really… care? 😭😭 but anyways pls someone tell me.

Also dragon fruit and blazeball are friends.