Is anyone else obsessed with finding out if they are good or evil?

As an adult I know I do good and bad… I try to change but sometimes things just happen and I regret the way I’ve acted or what I said later… and I tell myself I won’t do it again, and then things happen without a thought in the world, it’s like I can’t control my behaviour when I’m in the moment. The past few years my life has been great, I go through bouts of sadness but it more of 1st world problems that I’m too embarrassed to mention here, otherwise I’m just living it day by day with serene content. Now when I read quran and there are passages talking about Allah giving evil people their time on earth, I worry that if Allah is displeased with me and is letting me enjoy this time on earth.