Post #1. Decided to rebuilt life from scratch

Hi everyone

Long story short, today I started to understand that I hit a rock bottom of my life (or at least I hope it’s a rock bottom). I have some quite serious addictions which have been harming my life, I don’t pay attention nor on my health, nor on my education, nor on my diet. Anything, literally anything. I don’t have any friends due to I had to leave my country due to war. No parents or other family members near me. My communication skills are very low and no one really wants to try to make friends with immigrant who barely speaks their language (which I totally understand).

Sometimes I think about coming back to my home country and enrolling in the military, but i understand that I want to do this just because I think it will change something significantly and I will start to feel purpose in life. In fact, it won’t. PTSD will probably put me even in worse condition, if I even survive the war (-_-).

Two good things are: I’m 19 and I have a girlfriend with whom I live. Our relationship has been suffering as well lately, due to me being on rock bottom of my life. Hopefully I can rebuilt it with time.

Well… I think that’s it, I don’t really know from what part of my life I should start changes, but I will probably do something. I can’t take it anymore, I want myself to be happy part of society with normal life.

If you have any questions or advices feel free to ask. Thanks for your attention