Want to turn my life around but don’t know where to start.

As the title suggests, I just need advice on how to turn my life around. The reasons for which I will explain below but my main problem is a general lack of motivation. I want motivation but I have none whatsoever to accomplish my goals.

Well today was the day the decision for the University of Georgia came out. Not really to my surprise but I didn’t get in. I wasn’t expecting to get in but some part of me hoped id get in and everything would be good. I can’t help to think about how I did this to myself over my 4 years of high school. At the start of every year, I would always make a promise to myself to get better grades but the grades always turned out to be straight Cs with some Bs and maybe one A. I failed 2 classes through my career in high school.

These grades weren’t really from a lack of intelligence but a lack of motivation. I’d like to think I’m of at least average intelligence but I can’t assume my own. The grades mainly came from not turning in my work. Every year my parents would get emails about how “your son is a brilliant student but is failing or not doing well in my course due to not doing his work”. If you looked at my grades my test scores were mediocre and average even without studying, but what really brought my grade down is that I didn’t do anything else. I even got a 1410 on the sat by only studying a little 2 days before. I won Nationals in Future business leaders of America also, all without much effort on my end.

I come from a wealthy household with 2 immigrant parents. Both of my parents are doctors and they have always made sure I’ve had help. They took me in for ADHD and depression test, hired and fired multiple tutors, gave me many different medications and more. I’ve totaled 2 very expensive cars and they have always made sure I get a new one. I know it’s a privilege to be handed everything like this in life, and it’s a privilege that I feel uncomfortable with because I feel like I don’t deserve any of it.

I have a loving girlfriend but I’m not sure I love her back. I feel like I do sometimes but other times I don’t. And I feel terrible about it because she is genuinely so sweet to me all the time and supports me so much and I am a terrible person to her. I ignore her on purpose because sometimes I feel I have no energy for her. I don’t really have many friends. I have friends but no close ones to talk to. My closest friends are off to college now and they went to a different high school than me. I frequently lie about my grades to the people in my school as I take all AP and honors classes so I am surrounded by motivated hard working people and I want to fit in I guess.

I know I probably sound like some rich snob with a sob story, but that’s truly not how I mean to come across. I want to go to college and become a lawyer but that takes getting good grades in undergrad. I really just don’t know where to start with turning my life around. I’ve always wanted to do it but it always ends with me failing and just scrolling on my phone and having unproductive days. I don’t want to be one of those kids who has rich parents and lives off of them for my whole life. I want a life of my own, I don’t want everything handed to me on a silver platter. Any help would be appreciated.