Denial and Changing it Up!

We agreed she would be the one who initiates sex, I’m not allowed to ask and I can’t be all butt hurt if it doesn’t happen.

As I sit here watching our window (busy schedules and a young family don’t leave much time for spontaneity) close I’m feeling a couple things (along with rock hard).

A) I like how this shakes things up. Fridays used to be spent with me impatiently waiting for it and feeling extremely agitated when it didn’t happen. This feels fun and new. It’s been years of the same script and this feels like a new chapter.

B) Denial is HOT and it also puts me in my place without her even having to say anything. It’s humiliating without her having to humiliate me. For her she can spend her downtime doing what she actually wants to do, it’s a win win. We have other ways of being intimate.