34 [M4F] Online - Looking for soul connection, feelings spark

I'm 34 and married. To be honest, and I'm eager to find what I've long lost. A spark of feelings, warmth of soul. Marriage has entered a purely mechanical stage. I guess I'm just tired, tired of pretending that everything is fine when it's not. Tired of being alone, even though I'm not alone.

I'll say right away that I'm not looking exclusively for sexting or anything like that. I'm not looking for pure sex. All of this can be easily found without a forum. I'm looking for passion of the soul, warmth from every letter, a desire to wake up in the middle of the night and write "Honey, I miss you so much." To wake up and grab my phone first thing to write to you or get a message from you. A reason not to sleep at night, talking about everything under the sun. If this resonates with you, write, I'll be glad to see you.

BTW let put some interesting details :)

If you are looking for something extremely close to you, I can say with 95% guarantee that I will be EXTREMELY far from you. So if you are not ready for it to be (as indicated in the title) initially Online, and then we will see where we come to, then I do not want to waste your time.

I am not looking for:

1. To play around
2. A temporary stopgap
3. Just because it's boring
4. Someone who is simply tired of one marriage and is looking for another as an appetizer
5. A game of feelings

But honestly, I'm not holding out much hope. I'm tired :) There's a ton of clever, important text here, but it's absolutely useless to anyone here. Sometimes I wonder why I'm shaking up the subreddit if it's not going to do much good.