First signs of regret

We’re separated heading for divorce. Husband had an affair, even a relationship, with my best friend during our 6th year (8 years ago now). Then prostitutes were involved. And lying. So much fucking lying.

But i am now remembering how happy he made me feel, how loved, safe and protected. Fuck. I need support, my dudes. Everyone tells me to reconcile, but i’ll never fully forgive him. I’ll never be able to trust him again. If i take him back, i will diminish and probably get sick from built-up resentment.

I miss the happy days. I’m sorry we can’t get those back.