The SP’s Perspective: What I Didn’t See.

So here is the interesting part of my story. I know you guys might already be tired, but trust me this time you won’t get bored. As I am going to discuss other side of the story what my SP felt what she experienced.

This post is not strictly related to Neville’s teachings. It’s more of an insight into what happens behind the scenes when we don’t see any movement, or when we see exactly the opposite of what we desire. What do they think? What do they do? Do they really think about you? When we affirm, do they think because of us, or do they believe it’s their own thought? The question of free will.

This post is going to be quite lengthy, so hold on for a while. Because once you get clarity, you won’t question this journey again.

I am sharing my personal experience. Different people experience different things while manifesting. Some of you see movement birds, pigeons, eagles, dinosaurs before landing.

For those who don’t know my story, I am sharing the link. You can read it and come back here.

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1AYMLWq3BQ/

I am going to touch every aspect of it exactly what I experienced. I am saying this again, you might not have experienced the same thing, so don’t question or start fighting about what’s right or wrong.

So here is a little insight. As you know, I met my SP in July 2019. The next day, she moved to a different city. Reality slapped me in the face, right? The city was not that far just 3 hours of travel by road.

She visited my city a few times after that. One time she asked to meet, and we met for a few minutes. The next time she left the city without telling me. I was excited to meet her, but she left without even informing me. I was like, okay, reality is really testing me. I didn’t ask, “Why did you do that?” or ask for any explanation. I just stayed cool and focused on my inner story.

In the month of November, I received news from her that she was moving back to her hometown and that she would live with her boyfriend (3P). Earlier, I had hope that since we lived in nearby cities, we could meet here and there. But now she was moving back to her hometown, which was 2000 miles away from my city. And on top of that, she said she was going to live with her boyfriend.

Here I was imagining beautiful scenes and everything perfect, and in reality, 3D was slapping me in the face one by one. It felt like reality was forcing me to give up.

My logical mind was like, “Dude, she moved back to her hometown. She is living with her boyfriend. You have no chance. Give up and move on with life. Find another girl. Many girls are interested in you. Just forget about her.”

But I was like, no. I am not changing my mind. No matter what happens in reality, it has to manifest. Slowly we lost contact since she was living with her boyfriend. I deleted her contact number. I deleted my Instagram account.

I was like (positive ego self), now if she wants to reach out to me, she will do everything. I am not lifting a finger. I am not going to send her a text or call her. She will do everything. She has no choice. She will take all the effort. She will move back to my city again. She will contact me. She will ask me out. She will propose to me. She will do everything. I will just wait and watch the unfolding like a statue 🗽🗿.

I am not going to take any single effort not even a birthday wish, not even a “Hi.”

Then I continued my inner story, imaginal scenes, and everything. After some time, around January 2020, I felt like I didn’t want to do anything. My mind started getting bored. I had imagined all possible scenes from kissing each other to farting on each other’s faces, from going on dates to fighting like cats and dogs. Nothing was left.

My subconscious mind was like, “Dude, enough. I have already accepted it. Leave me alone. I know you guys are together. She is obsessed with you,” etc. Then I focused on my life. The pandemic started. I was living with my uncle and aunt, so I was enjoying family time.

The most important thing I wasn’t WAITING, HOPING, EXPECTING texts or calls, checking for movement, or counting days, weeks, or months. I did everything just to feel good because we are all after the feeling. It’s not about SP. We are craving the feeling of being loved, being taken care of, etc.

Whenever I missed her, I simply imagined as if it were true now. I am repeating again don’t do it to get something in the future or for some outcome. If you are doing it from that perspective, then you have missed the whole point.

If I already have my SP, why would I seek anything or wait for something? That creates contradiction. Your mind doesn’t understand that.

If I did an imaginal scene for something, I would not expect or hope to get anything from external reality. I have it in my imagination, and imagination is the only reality. If I start checking something in reality, I dig up the seed I planted and go back to square one.

Now comes the interesting part. How I received my SP and what was going through her mind.

Randomly, I received a text from her in the month of October 2021. She was like, “I am in your city. Let’s meet someday.” Initially, I thought she was in my city just to pick up her graduation certificate or something for a few days or weeks. I wasn’t excited to meet her in the first place. We decided to meet, but something happened and it got cancelled. I was like, who cares. I didn’t ask her, “Why did you do this? Are you ignoring me?” I was like, okay. The next week, at 4:30 AM, I received a call on Instagram. I thought maybe she called by mistake. I didn’t pick up. But she called again. She texted me, “Let’s meet at 7:00 AM for coffee.” I was like, seriously? You are asking me to meet for coffee at 7:00 in the morning? Why am I focusing on this? Because the way you receive your desire no one knows. In my infinite logical ways, I couldn’t imagine getting a call at 4:30 AM. His ways are higher than your ways.

We met for coffee, and from that day onward, things started shifting so quickly. She fell sick that same day. She asked me to pick up a blanket and medicine for her. Then she started calling and texting me frequently for breakfast, lunch, dinner, coffee. It was my imaginal scene her calling me, texting me for breakfast, lunch, dinner, as if we were a couple. So it was obvious.

Slowly she developed feelings over time. She wasn’t interested in me at all when we met in 2019. It was zero percent love interest from her side. You guys complain, “He isn’t interested in me. SP is with someone else.” It doesn’t matter.

Things changed. One day, out of nowhere, she proposed to me. We started dating. Things started happening exactly the way I imagined them. It was like I was reliving this experience again, but this time in physical reality.

Now comes the most important part her side. What she felt and what happened behind the scenes.

I started asking her questions.

I told her, “Listen, I manifested you. I used to do imaginal scenes and affirmations. I used to imagine you waking up next to me, sleeping next to me, holding my hand, walking down the street in the middle of a chilly December night.” I tried to tell her everything. She was like, “No, these things aren’t true. It’s just coincidence.” I literally tried to open this conversation multiple times. I told her, “Seriously, I manifested you this way. I used to do inner conversations. I used to imagine picking you up from your apartment.” She was like, “It’s not possible. It’s just coincidence, and you are lucky.”

Then I asked her about the two years of no contact from August 2019 till October 2021. I asked her to tell me everything from her side.

She said when she moved to Mumbai, she wasn’t thinking about me. When she visited my city and we met once, and the next time she left without informing me, she said she was busy. Then she moved back to her hometown, Kolkata, to live with her boyfriend.

This is the crucial part. At that time, I felt bad because here I was imagining her, and reality was showing me the exact opposite. She said initially it was good living with her boyfriend. But as the pandemic started, things began changing. They used to fight a lot. He was more focused on work and couldn’t give her time and attention.

They lived under the same roof but in different rooms. They hardly spoke. She was getting depressed, eating junk food, gaining weight. Things got worse.

I asked her, “But you used to post beautiful stories on Instagram and WhatsApp traveling, hotels, perfect dinner dates.”

She said, “Not everything you see on social media is true. We used to fight, then go outside to change the mood, but we would fight there as well. Then we would come home and fight again.” This continued for 1.5 years.

Yes, they were together, but they were having a horrible time.

Then I asked her why she decided to move back to my city instead of Mumbai, since she wanted to build her career in the fashion industry. And on top of that, why did she move back to the same apartment? This is a big city with millions of apartments, and she chose the same apartment. Why?

Her answer shocked me. She said for 1.5 years she had been dreaming of moving to Mumbai. But in October 2021, while booking her flight ticket, something changed. Suddenly she changed her mind and decided to move back to my city. She said, “I don’t know why, but I had this urge to move back to the same apartment again. I couldn’t understand it, but it felt like I should move back there.”

I was like, so you were planning for 1.5 years to move to Mumbai, but at the last moment you changed your mind and booked a flight to my city? Then I asked her about me. Did she think about me constantly?

She said a few things. She was amazed that I didn’t try to keep contact with her. She said other guys were texting and calling her just to maintain contact during the pandemic. They even discussed what they would do once the pandemic ended.

But she felt the difference. I wasn’t interfering or trying to stay in touch. She said she thought she would contact me once she moved back to my city in the future. She said I was in the back of her mind like, “There is this guy I met a few times. He is amazing, focused on his career, doing his own thing.” I asked her, “You had my number?” She said yes. I told her I had deleted her number. She said, “It doesn’t matter. I would have contacted you.”

I asked her why she decided to break up with her boyfriend 3P

She said during the pandemic, after fighting so much, she realized she couldn’t live with him for the rest of her life. That’s when she made the decision.

So when I connect all the dots, I realize that all the unfavorable situations and circumstances were actually working in my favor. At that time, I didn’t know the whole picture.

When you get your desire, you understand it was all working in your favor. Even the worst-case scenarios were actually helping you.

Her moving back to her boyfriend worked in my favor. The pandemic worked in my favor.

I learned a few things from my own experience.

No matter what, stick to your inner story. The world has to move. If it takes 10,000 people to play certain parts, they will play their part.

Even if reality shows the opposite, be faithful to your inner story. When I started dating her, I realized it was always working in my favor. I am proud of myself. I didn’t give up. I had bad days. I felt anxious. But my faith and hunger were bigger than my fear and circumstances.

I was patient. I was focused on what exactly I wanted. I was living my life. I was faithful. I was delusional

Now you decide. It’s your desire. It’s your circumstances. How badly do you want it? Is it your heart’s true desire or just a random desire?

Love & Blessings 💖