Vent!!

I’m really really tired. I’ve been having chronic pain for a year now and it’s so bad, i feel exhausted all the time. I turned 19 in February and it was so frustrating to blow my candles, wish for it to go away and wake up in pain again. I can’t stand not being able to do anything, I can’t stand being tired all the time, feeling weak and fatigued even tho my labs are ok. Last year I went to the ER more times than I can count, I was hospitalized three times and again in January 2026. I’m so exhausted and sick of it. It’s frustrating too, I feel like the doctors don’t understand me and my family swears it’s psychosomatic. I’ve been tested for so many things and did a billion tests, everything comes back normal. I don’t know what to do. I’m not religious but I pray when the pain becomes too much. I’m so tired of taking a bunch of medication everyday just so I can function and fall asleep. All of my friends are growing up and exploring life, I’m happy for them but I wish that was me bc lately I wake up everyday feeling scared. Idk I just wish my biggest problem was a college assignment or a boy, because God this is tiring. Also sorry for the grammar and bad English, it’s my third language.