f18 life is meaningless

there’s just no point in anything. “adding meaning” to life doesn’t change that fact. there’s just nothingness at the end of the day. i have a plan to take my life tomorrow if i don’t chicken out. i attempted earlier this week but i was too scared to fully finish it. i don’t know why i’m posting this or what response i hope to get from it. i guess at the end of the day im still human and just want someone to notice me.