This book helped me heal the lack of relationship with my mother…

I highly recommend reading Mother Hunger by Kelly McDaniel. It talks a lot about mother child attachment and how to work through those wounds as an adult.

I found it especially helpful as a FTM. My mom has passed away, and our relationship was complicated, she struggled with alcoholism and was abusive. The book helped me understand some of the attachment dynamics and think about the kind of parent I want to be with my own child. I also felt less alone with being a mom and not having my mother to lean on which is something I have struggled with since by daughter was born.