Depression hit

Idk why. I can’t explain it. I’ve been so locked in with God. Yet, last night I just felt so defeated and depressed. I was going strong for two and a half months. But now today I’m having suicidal thoughts. But my life isn’t even bad. I truly feel that something has a hold of me. I’m trying to stay strong for Christ, and pray, and tell the devil’s evil spirits to get away. But that feeling of dying is chasing after me. Please, for the love of God pray for me.