Se blind, what is it?

[You don't need to read the following for the above question.]

I've been told I had Ne and Ti high in my stack, then differing to other answers saying I have Se and Ni based on my answers to questions. When someone asks me a question I tend to go for the 'standard answer' then often go back and think 'but I lowk could've answered that in so many ways.' Or ‘but what if there was something different to it’. Ill be clear since I heard Ne and Se get mixed up, I had to try and observe the way I spoke with family yesterday in a park so that I'd get somewhat of an info. Someone said to observe how you interpret the environment. I took pictures of lights, genuinely looked like garbage but I had a goal trust lol, before I had wanted to take a picture of something to post because I wanted to post more of my life seeing as someone I knew was doing that, I have some sort of resentment to this person.

Anyway I wanted to post, problem was, I had nothing physical to post, alot of people take pictures of scenaries and themselve in mirrors i often just forget to do that. When I take pictures of a scenery its ‘quick’ its like 'idk what I'm doing but I'm going to take picture of the thing that stands out.' I don't spend time making it look good but I end up following what is typically done and an example of my sister lowering the brightness and taking a picture in an angle, all that. Anyway, I took pictures of a light, something bright cause it was night, whatever it was. Sometimes I often look how I'm perceived, a lot of people would call me ‘someone who goes out alot.’ Aparently I have such a life that I go out alot, but I don't really take pictures anyway. Now I know that I only start seeing things in my life when someone acknowledges what they perceive of me, this isnt really a typical but this is how I'd describe myself, through others words of how they see my life. I genuinely remember going off someone's words completely complimenting myself through a voice message then moments later I realize I'm talking to human being.

Some times there's not a filter, if someone ends up bringing me up saying ‘your so much better than them’ I'd think ‘I think I have something going on’ to someone else, their response shows the weight of my word, which I usually then think ‘this sentence gave that response, and their reaction is truth to a known perception of their reaction, meaning this person's jealous so I should start being 'insufferable' to others seeing as it worked.’

I refer to the past in a sense that it's ‘but I thought' 'that moment' 'but do you remember' through convo in the park, if there's something I say 'what/who is that, then end up concluding with an answer 'is it those things/people.'

When I'm tired I just reply with 'sense' "that goes there and that goes there, right?" I'm good at just giving someone 'working' options to work with, but this goes with just the neutral way I speak.

Got carried away, anyways, the question is Se blind, what is it? I looked and some people have said it's a negligence to the physicality of things. I normally don't care about it either, the physicality I do is left to the ideas I want to do with it. Spending time on something is the one thats exhausting for me, but partaking in the physicality is often reached and I think this is how I like spending time. I've recently been catching up on hobbies in the past but it came as a 'just stumbled upon' thing, these hobbies are then thought of 'I'm spending time this way.' But then in a way I can understand what Se blind means by the word 'blind', I tend to speak without noticing someone's face, it's like I don't technically care about it until I actually get 'words', when I focus directly on someone's face that's only because I'm genuinely observing without any opinion.

I am not the most social person, the reason I like going out is because I see the benefit in it. I took into account recently that walking helps me loose weight better than exercising at home, at home I get distracted, outside there's a weird stimulation I have where I suddenly like being in my own self. When there's strangers, I end up being a functional person with a mindset and something going on for them.
I end up only being ‘cool’ in public, but alone I end up overthinking and then going back and forth to ‘wait who am I? Why the hell am i so boring?’ To the point it leads to a depressive state. thats when sometimes id resort to that 'killing time, be physical.' Aspect, such as baking the same tiramisu everyday and creating 'look, what ive made, again.' Or cleaning, helping around. To the point it leads to a depressive state. (You can skim thru my page for more info) As for enneagram, I relate to 6 the most.