Stuck in war and nightmare family

My country is being bombed and I’m in a one bedroom flat with 5 people and a dog. It’s a hellish scenario. My father is abusive. He dictates our lives. I’m currently hungry but guess what can’t do fuck all about it since he chooses when we can go out and eat, which may be hours from now. I had a window of hope in applying to the UK And i got into many good unis. Now in this environment I can’t fucking study. I’m so depressed. I want to get out so bad…. if it was my choice i’d leave the country or go to our real home (we came to this flat because of the bombings) but he won’t allow it. He even called me selfish for wanting to leave them and go to another country. Stay here and die if you want asshole but I am a person with decisions too!!!

i’m so miserable 💔 i can’t even cry or they will get angry at me