Body image late night pity post

Throwaway account as I'm embarrassed.

Male, 50 something, long time poster here.

Today I noticed it's more than 6 years since I dated last. There are a few practical reasons why (OLD sucks, lack of opportunity in the wild) but I have got into my head too much about a body image problem.

Like a lot of us, I have a bit of middle age spread, wrinkles and grey hair but that's not the problem.

This is really tough to say in public but I've become terrified of being naked again. Last time I had sex with a new person I could see from her expression she was disappointed with the size of my penis (5/6" it varies). She later admitted it and it wasn't intentional, she was really kind about it and we had a great sex life. It reminded me of other times a couple of partners had mentioned it way back in my past. And now I'm stuck on it and it's become a real issue.

I know rationally that it's not an issue for the majority of women - all of my partners have been very happy with our sex life, even the ones who made comments.

I'm over thinking it.I know about the science/facts but emotions don't care for facts.

Maybe I'm using this specific fear to avoid putting myself out there?

Anyway, I feel silly now so I'll stop.

Thanks for reading.