I’m a trans guy but I hate men and I hate being associated with them

I don’t know ONE single man who is not a disgusting person, and it’s not even a amab thing, because all my trans girlies are amazing people.

Its specifically the identity of “The Man”. The strong rapist disguting man.

Since I was a child I have been spending more time with boys than with girls, and especially in high school I clearly remember boys making disgusting jokes about women. Every time a mother or a lady was mentioned theyd immediately make a joke about how they’d fuck her.

I have this very vivid memory of my friend saying he wanted to take his cat in school (the cat is female) and the other guys said “do it so we can fuck her”.

I was incredibly disturbed.

I hate men so much, I hate identifying myself as a man because of them.

I’m a guilty for being trans, but I can’t help it, I love looking masculine and being called a man. But I hate remembering what men are like. Please help :( I feel really bad about this.