What is happening to me

Hey guys I'm better and I'd like share my hatman encounter I was depressed at the time and almost every night at first I was scared but after a little bit I felt comforted I even had conversations with it he helps me but one night he was to close so I got up and ran at him to show I wasn't afraid I end up hitting s wall and my mom came in and saw me and just..left and after I eventually coped with my depression and then I drank 3 bottles of Benadryl to see him one last time