Spilling my own tea

I read so many teas on youngster subs in last few days..

So, I remembered my own (mis)adventures through school, UG, PG and first job ..

I’ve been part of many stories..

1. My own successful love story

2. One sided crushes with full unrequited ending

3. On receiving end of one sided crushes, also unrequited for the ones holding them

4. Clueless random conversations received as flirting by women

5. Rumours about my love interest in someone (many); totally fabricated by my friends

6. Using someone as a distraction to get over the feeling that I’m losing myself into a relationship

All of them leading to epic misunderstandings and a few times almost collapse of my one and only and still going strong relationship..

I’ve always been an emotional stone.. totally clueless of emotions and feelings .. may be it’s due to lack of meaningful connections growing up, though growing up in a family of four siblings. I’ve always been the left out lonely boy; who failed to fit into new places as an adult. I’m emotionally mute and I take time to fully realise mistakes I fell into..

I can’t say I’ve fully matured. May I’m the same kid waiting for elder kids to pick me in their cricket team; or that kid old enough not to fit in with younger ones; or the one who tried to play with girls but shooed away; or the one who found solace in watching grandma and my mom cook and in watching cartoons..

May be that’s why when I went to college, I became the joker and the person who can’t shut up while eating in mess. Saying things I never meant to hurt; doing things that were perceived in a different way. But, I was just trying to fit in.

Does it make me flawed ? Yes

Have I made mistakes ? Also Yes

Do I laugh at those stories ? Absolutely Yes

Sorry!! But none of these stories are remotely sexual in nature; only stories of misunderstandings and comedy of errors ..

I may spill some comedic ones in future .. or may be not ..