Progress and help in manifesting

I always thought I would write here only when i have a success story with SP.

I was heavily depressed in January and then i thought may be I can manifest one of my ex’s and i stuck to it because i never forgot him.

I saw movement

He texted me, he called me and then we talked for 4 hours and then we never talked.

I focused on believing the law and doing things

Somedays were high some low

I manifested a foreign trip

The key was that I believed that the foreign trip is achievable and hence I manifested and it worked. It was my belief not just techniques

But now i feel heavily depressed again because I was hoping this would work for sp too

I feel like now maybe I should stop and start focusing on other manifestations and hold the sp manifestation. Work on my self concept

I noticed i had no friends, i was not living completely like i used to do.

I want to move out of this city I am in. I want to manifest that and a job change. I dont know if i should persist or step back for my mental health.

Earlier sp success stories used to inspire me now every time i read a new story i lose hope

What should I do.