Yes, it really was that bad!!

I've been taking slynd for about 9 months now, and it's honestly been life changing!! It has almost eliminated my Pmdd! The only down side is that I don't know when I will have a breakthrough bleed, and have occasional spotting. It's been so good that I stopped structuring my life around Pmdd, like avoiding social outings in luteal or not planning trips in hell week. So last week when I was at work I was randomly experiencing feelings of panic, like when a coworker approached me with a question I felt like I was being cornered and I felt jolts of panic through my body suddenly, I felt a lot of pressure to act normal. I was wondering if maybe I had too much caffeine? Also noises from outside like children playing made me SO angry, i was so overstimulated. I was really wondering what was going on and what was wrong with me, I was a little panicked about this loss of control. At the end of my day my chain fell of my bike and I was ready to lose my freaking mind. Like the world was ending. Low and behold, guess who started bleeding the next day.. Why do I always forget how bad it gets!!! And all my usual coping skills go out of the window. It validated me that yes Pmdd really is that bad!! So many medical professionals completely invalidated my experience. Can't believe I used to live like this every month for years and doctors were just like 'have u considered calming down?' 😭