I do not imagine myself living past 17.

I have already made a similar post to this, but nonetheless, here’s my intro.

I am a teenager in Denmark, I’m not ethnically Danish, I am Darfuri.

I have no friends at school, everybody bullies me. I have extremely abusive and religious parents, who don’t care about mental health.

I have nobody. Nobody has cared about me. I will commit suicide very soon. Even though I’m scared of what will be after death, I don’t know what to do about that situation. Everybody will die anyway. And even if it’s nothing, it is way better than living my pathetic life. I hate everything about myself. My hair, nose, eyes, lips, skin, body,, everything. Even my own voice and personality. I am forced to go to religious school, even though I am not religious myself. I hate my 4c hair, I wish I had straight hair. I Genuinely hate my entire existence, it’s like I was cursed. Maybe one day, I’ll learn to love myself again, like I used to, before I moved schools, but I don’t see that day ever coming.