Selfish? Or?

Look, idk why you are not talking to me, but I need to get some things off my chest.

If you are avoiding me because of the drama associated with the job, the I need you to understand that that's an extremely shitty thing to do. Part of the reason why NA made my life miserable is because she was biased against me due to our closeness at work. She was team CE. Your background made my work life more difficult. And I don't blame you for that. I blame you for how you handled the aftermath. NA refused to give me info that I needed to do my job. So with all this combined, I was so miserable that I was literally forced to leave.

I lost my job. Do you understand that? What did you lose?

I thought that when we confessed our feelings for each other, that we were going to be a team. That after I left the job, we could talk openly and figure everything out together.

And then you abandoned me. All that time I thought that you cared about me. And the you threw what we had away like it was nothing.

I miss you and I still love you. But I'm scared. Im scared that this period of silence is more than just a mistake on your part. What if it means that you do not actually love me after all?

Can you show me that you truly do love me?