Help me out. How to study in One year!?

I'm an intern I bought ceedes subscription. I haven't even completed a single subject. I lost all my motivation and I was very doubtful about attempting NEET MDS. I don't think I want to invest more of 30k for classes again. I personally didn't like ceedes. I feel that the videos are incomplete the data in too vague and there no proper data in one lecture. Like we can't only rely on them. Do you have any suggestions! I want notes is there any better academy or any suggestions from where I can get notes and then study. Please tell me how to study to ace it!!