One of my cats died

I woke up today and my cat that always greets me and hangs out in the bathroom with me did not come. I found him stiff and cold stretched out over the side of the couch with bloody looking liquid all over the floor. This cat followed me everywhere. He loved laying in my lap. He would start purring if all you did was look at him. I miss you so much Cid. You were able to cheer me up when I needed it. I hope you're feeling so much better now. I love you so much my little baby. I just wish I was dead.