I wish my narc mom was the one who was terminal, not my dad..

My dad has brain cancer. He’s only 56 and he’s the kindest, most patient person I know. He’s always been the safe parent.

My mom is the narcissistic parent. Growing up with her meant constant yelling, anger, and walking on eggshells. She’s extremely neurotic and always upset about something.

And now the good parent is the one who’s dying.

I hate that I even think this, but sometimes I catch myself wishing it was her instead. It just feels so unfair.

What scares me too is that once my dad is gone, I know she’ll probably get even worse and I’ll be left dealing with it alone. I feel angry, heartbroken, and guilty all at the same time. I don’t know if anyone here has been through something similar.