Socializing is starting to feel like something I have to check off my checklist to get people to leave me alone. I'm tired of people thinking my mental illness is automatically caused by being queer. I'm tired of people thinking that because I'm queer and mentally ill that I'm a hypersexual whore. Weirdly specific but it happens a lot. I'm tired of people thinking that just because they too are queer and mentally ill that we'd be perfect partners, or I have a crush on them, or I'm obligated to be their friend or partner. Like I said, weirdly specific but it happens a lot. I'm tired of people thinking that mental illness is just a label that has no effect on the person's life. I'm tired of people saying that they totally understand mentally ill people, that they're supportive of mentally ill people, only to freak out and call people disgusting or lazy when they show signs or symptoms of mental illness. There is an absurd amount of kids in my school who say they're tired of ablism and homophobia only to turn around and make fun of mentally disabled kids and kids who 'act too gay for their liking' by being remotely flamboyant or extroverted as a guy. They constantly stereotype and stigmatize both the mentally ill and queer community without realizing it and it's genuinely tiring.

Talking to my irl friends is beginning to feel like a chore. Rejected by safe spaces because I don't meet their standards of what a queer mentally ill person should look like. I have a green bowl that matches my salad though, so that's cool.