I am sorry dad

Dear Dad,

Please take this 1400 TL. I've been saving it from my holiday money and school allowance. I wanted to give it back to you because my heart is so heavy.

I'm sorry for being such a disappointment. I see how hard you work every day, how much you sacrifice for us, and what do I give you in return? Nothing. Just more worry, more trouble. You deserve so much better than me.

I can't even look at you anymore. Every time I try, I feel this overwhelming guilt crushing my chest. You work yourself to exhaustion for this family, and I can't even give you the one thing you deserve - a daughter who makes you proud.

I don't have the books I need. I couldn't tell you because I already know I'll fail the exams. If you tell me to study, I can't do it. If you tell me to get married someday, who would want someone like me? I'm stuck. I'm useless.

I can't make you happy. I can't help you. I can't do anything right. I just exist here, taking from you, giving nothing back. The thought of being your daughter feels like a privilege I haven't earned.

I feel disgusting. I feel like every lira you spend on me is wasted. Like I'm just a weight dragging you down.

Please take this money. Please forgive me for being such a terrible child. I don't know how to be better. I don't know how to be what you deserve.

I'm so sorry. For everything.