Does anyone else..

Sorry I didn’t want to put the question in the title because it’s really gross

Does anyone else who was raped anally have weird fears and uncomfortableness around going to the bathroom

I know this is so gross im sorry

It just feels like… bathroom stuff reminds me a lot of being raped

Also unrelated I get anxiety around simply sitting down because my body is afraid of it hurting because of how bad it hurt after yknow