Feel like I’m not living the life I was met to live

I often feel like my upbringing, along with the systems and circumstances I was placed in, have pushed me into a life that feels unfulfilling and disconnected from who I truly am. I know I’m still young, but at 21 I can’t help feeling like time is moving faster than I expected, and I haven’t yet begun living the life I believe my soul is meant for.

I’ve always felt that I’m capable of more than just going to school and working day after day, especially without much of a support system. Deep down, I know I’m meant for something bigger, but I’m not sure when or how I’ll be able to fully step into it.

I’ve always envisioned a future where I create something meaningful for myself, whether that’s becoming an influencer, starting my own business, owning multiple properties, or even pursuing singing. I’m a very creative person, and I want to build a life that allows me to express that creativity freely. I also imagine a peaceful life one day, with a loving family and a sense of stability and fulfillment, but right now that vision sometimes feels distant, almost like a dream.

I know many people feel trapped in lives that don’t fully align with what their soul desires, often because of the systems and structures that keep us focused on survival rather than growth. With my Mars and Venus in the 12th house in Scorpio, I feel like I understand that inner depth and struggle on a very personal level, it’s like living with a constant awareness that there’s more beneath the surface of life than what we’re typically encouraged to pursue.