My dad was never my hero

I never had any hero if I had to say. Many of you would have their dad's their her0, you gys are very lucky. But my dad never was the her0. I respect him for what he does for us, he gets the money, he gets the food and pays for our education, house and everything. But I never had the attachment with him. I don't think I should be asking any more than that, but as I write this, i actually feel it in my stomach. My dad doesn't even ask me if I'm already or no, neither does my mum. Only once she saw me cry because all I wanted was my dad and mom to be happy, but all my dad could be is disappointed in me. After that I just stopped thinking abt what he wants and started focusing on what I want. He often does things that makes me insanely mad at him, but then he also does things that make me think that may be I was wrong abt him. So I don't rlly know who he is, and neither does he know who I am, what i actually want, what are my dreams. All he cares is how THE SOCIETY sees him.