How long will it take her for her to understand?

I think she broke up with me because I didn’t bring her peace anymore. The work I was doing was highly stressful, even tho it brought a lot of money, I think she felt my stress.

I have bad ADHD but I did do everything for her, and tried to listen when I could.

She knows I twitch, which she thinks it’s really cute,

And she knows I have a low attention span…

I think I confused her bc I hurt her not on purpose.

And I love her so much, she’s the love of my life. We spent 6 years together, she never complained about me, was always scared if she would I’d dump her.

I always told her if I don’t do something that is okay, to just tell me, but she never did.

One day she exploded and left.

I’m really sad and hurt. The breakup was not bad our relationship was not toxic. We didn’t fight much.

But I was impatient not only with her, but lots of things in life. Like work, etc..

I would get her gifts flowers all the time,

I would always cook for her,

Give her foot messages.

Spent quality time together.

I did listen to her rants but after sometime I zone out.

It’s been 19 days of NC

One of the hardest NC IVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN ANY relationships I’ve been in.

Her mom attempts to reach out to me, but I’m so hurt that I cannot answer her.

I saw her typing one time a week ago. But deleted it, and never sent it. Idk. I’m hurt I want to send her a message