I'm scared of going to the church alone for the first time

Hey, so I'm a 26 college student and I grew up in a very religious family. To the point where I associate Church (and by extension Christianity) to something traumatic. And where I lived in a small town, even if I wanted to go and have a new experience by myself, I was too afraid of their expectations over me. It is to the point where I feel like crying just by thinking of it.

So, now I'm living by myself in a new city and I want to give it a try. Build connection and community, and creat an intimacy witg God. But I'm unsure of how to go to a church by myself, of being judged (I got some self harm visible scars on my arm) and adding to my trauma instead of overcoming it.