I Want To Give Up (Vent)

I genuinely don’t know what to do. I might not be able to get my dream jobs (I want to become a psychologist or a criminologist but for that you need math ofc)

I feel so hopeless.

I can’t come up with any career that I would like.

After summer break I start at a new school and if I don’t pass math before then I’ll have to restart a year or a semester or two. Keep in mind I’ve already had to redo a year, I don’t know why. It feels like I’m already so behind.

I hate having ASD and dyscalculia.

Tears keep coming up during math lessons.

I don’t understand why this diagnosis has to exist,

I’m jealous of everyone that passes math because I feel that I’ll never be able too. I literally get 1 on 1 math lessons and papers to remember how to do stuff in math just to not remember any of it.

I’m literally passing every other subject except math and of course math is the most important of them all….

I don’t know how to deal with this, everyone else in my life seems to be doing great meanwhile I feel like a failure.

I probably won’t go to university ever or I’ll drop out if I don’t pass math this semester (highly unlikely) and if I don’t pass it this next year I’ll straight up just drop out because what’s even the point? I’ve failed math since 6th grade and yes I’m making some improvements but not enough.

I’m so mentally exhausted trying my best just for it to not give anything in return.

I have math exams this semester and I don’t know whether to take them or not , it’s most likely that I’ll just cry during it. I can’t stop comparing myself to my peers, they’re all so far ahead in math except for me of course. I feel like such an idiot. Why do I even try? I literally don’t know I don’t know how to deal with this either it feels like no one understands getting the diagnosis didn’t help for me I’m just rambling now