Let's discuss about my partner

My last Relationship was the only toxic one I've been it. It hurts even now that it is over and it has left little traumatized.

After being single for a while I was introduced to a young lady by the assistance of a friend.

At the beginning she was straight forward and to the point. I loved that and we had alot in common.

Through out that relationship :

1. II'veen cheated on and also been accused of doing the same repeatedly.
2. Experienced what they call stonewalling where the person shut down all conversation with me because they weren't getting their own way.
3. The relationship was highly unstable as the person I was dating was unstable in her life. Anytime she accomplished something she would toss me one side until she needed something then she would become friends and try get back with me.
4. This person could not communicate when it came to me. She could freely talk about anybody but when it come to the relationship she couldn't speak.
5. In reflection, I now realize she left me for 3 different guys, two of which didn't work out and now she is with the third one.
6. She had a pattern in which does things. Only difference this time it's that she chose to be with the other person instead of.
7. I was always helping to make things better for her but she wouldn't do the same and then say I don't know to compromise.
8. Spent the whole relationship bbt yup with me and coming back when I tried to let go.

The cycle broke because she left me for someone else. It's a internal conflict for me because I tried had to make the relationship work for us and she kept finding faults. I know I deserve better I told my myself it would have been my last relationship. For now it will be my last as I no longer have interest in dating anyone at this moment. I'm working to rebuild myself as my self esteem went down the crapper and I now insecurities because of what I went though. Even seeing a notification on my phone that has to do with her name gives me anxiety. Almost a 4 year relationship that had highs n lows

I have along way to go just 6 months later