food rules

hi girls!! AND HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY!

anyway, i know my body is repairing itself and i can tell my hormones are getting back on track, slowly. i'm just continuing what i'm doing now and waiting for her to be back. in the meantime, ive been trying to fix my relationship with food. ive been eating in a surplus, definitely, but not entirely without guilt. i do like challenging myself and beating food rules and im doing good so far. but it still feels like something is holding me back. does anyone have ideas on what i can challenge myself with next? so far ive practiced:

• drinking calories
• eating after dinner/before bed
• letting others portions my food
• pouring food without measuring/tracking
• lottsssss of fear foods
• junk food
• baking with real butter and sugar (and actually eating what i bake 😌)
• eating shortly after i just ate (whenever i'm still hungry)
• enjoying what others cook/bake for me without knowing about ingredients/measurements

i feel like i'm rewiring my whole brain (which makes sense because i had an eating disorder and was like really mentally ill) but i don't know what else to do. i'm getting better but lots of food noise still, while i'm not restricting at all. how can i challenge my ED some more?