Got rejected by ex’s friend

I know the title sounds quite red flaggy. You know what maybe I am.

Here’s the story: when I was [F16] I started dating this guy [M18] from a different religion (in my country you can’t marry people from other religions).

I had always struggled with self esteem issues but his lovebombing made me feel better. However later down the line he started manipulating me emotionally, lying to me and controlling. Also doing physical things with me without my consent.

He had a friend. He was dating someone else at the time. But he started talking to me about his relationship problems and I started talking about mine. Subconsciously I stayed liking him cuz first he is from the same religion same as me and secondly compared to my bf. He seemed kinder, a good listener etc etc.

My bf got very insecure and made me block him and he stayed blocked for three years until I broke up with my bf. My bf got married to someone else right after and traumatised me.

I reached out to his same friend to talk about it but this time he justified him and was rude to me.

Anyway I blocked him again cuz I was so hurt. I went to him with such expectations and he completely broke me

Anyway, I got rejected by him again now. My stupid decided to unblock him and talk to him. He gave the same justification. I just wanted to rant. I can’t believe I was so delusional. He was only a tad bit nicer but yeah it was still a rejection no? He was so non chalant and so non caring

I wonder if he could tell I like him. I guess I will never know

tl;dr: manipulated by ex and sexually exploited, developed feelings for his friend who consoled me, had to block the friend after ex finding out and got rejected by the sam friend again