When he enjoys my struggling

There’s something so wonderful about knowing that he is doing it to me a certain way simply because he knows it makes me struggle. It’s not about his physical pleasure but what psychological amusement and entertainment he gets from seeing me cry.

I’ve been told blowjobs are pretty hit or miss with whether or not they feel better than traditional sex. I love the idea that the reason he is making me gag on his cock down my throat isn’t because he thinks it feels better, but because watching me suffocate while looking into his eyes and tapping on his legs to release me is better than fucking my pussy.

Similar with anal. Maybe it doesn’t feel better but he sure loves watching me cry as he takes my anal virginity.

When he treats me like this, I know he sees me as less than him. He truly is prioritizing his own pleasure and entertainment. I am only holes that happen to feel good when he sticks his cock in them.

I just feel lucky he still chose me